In the days leading up to her talk at the TEDx Port-of-Spain event on December 12, Trinidad-born beauty blogger Patrice Grell Yursik of Afrobella.com couldn't shake some unexplainable nerves.
"There's something about coming home that is more nerveracking for me because I'm going to look in the audience and my parents are there, my high-school geography teacher is there and all these other people who I know so there's something very weird about that experience and very out of body," said Yursik during an interview at Medulla Art Gallery on December 7.
At Medulla, Yursik met with young local designers and fashion enthusiasts participating in the Style Spirit Weekend. The discussion covered not only the birth of her Web site, but also included advice on marketing one's brand.
Both events were speaking engagements Yursik didn't see herself giving six years ago when she founded Afrobella.com. Now, she's already booked past March for 2013 and still wrapping her mind around fame and fans. In 2009, Yursik took on blogging full time when she resigned from her calendar editor position at a Miami newspaper. The job was "stifling" and Yursik said she felt as though her dreams were dying.
Afrobella.com focuses on natural hair, culture, style and beauty products for black women. The tag line is "all shades of beautiful" and Yursik set out to celebrate black beauty that was somewhat unconventional. When Yursik started out, natural hair blogging was a niche market-she was filling a void-leaving some to refer to her as the Godmother of the now burgeoning brown beauty blogging industry.
Her Godmother status has lead Yursik to be featured in and contribute to magazines like Essence, Ebony, Glamour and Italian Vogue. She has interviewed celebrities such as singer Janelle Monae, musician Esperanza Spalding and actors Phylicia Rashad and Sanaa Lathan.
The week before coming to T&T, the Bishop Anstey High School alumna was chosen to launch Microsoft's new tablet computer Surface.?Last year, she worked with cosmetics maker MAC to create a lipgloss called All Of My Purple Life and she's been working with US department store Target on promoting its line of multicultural beauty products. In January she heads to Las Vegas for the Blog World New Media Expo. Yursik is also on Ebony Magazine's Power 100 list along with the Obamas, Jay-Z and Oprah Winfrey.
"Sometimes it feels very surreal, like it's not my life, but it is, and I have to be present in the moment and very appreciative for all of it. It's weird and it's cool and it's beautiful. Definitely, being appreciated for what you do is a wonderful thing."
With the growing interest in beauty products targeting black women and specifically natural hair, Yursik has had to re-evaluate her perspectives on the nature of the trend.
"I used to say that it's not a trend but a lifestyle and a movement. But there are definitely people who dabble. I've had experiences where I realise people are trying to trade on my authenticity," she said.
"All of a sudden companies that focus mainly on making relaxer are noticing relaxer isn't selling any more, but they don't use those (natural) ingredients, so they just use the same crap they always use and put 'natural' on it and put it in a brown bottle."
However, when it comes to the business of brown beauty blogging and natural hair care, the positive outweighs the negative for the Chicago resident.
"There are so many hair companies now where I personally know the women who started in their kitchens or some little lab and now their products have become mass market. It's really cool to see that natural hair has allowed a lot of women to flourish. I hope that happens in T&T as well," she said.
Thanks to the internet, that flourishing may not be far away, says Yursik, who's noticed more warmth towards her large afro locally in recent years. "I think there's been a broadening of the minds. In the past it used to take us longer to catch on to international trends but I really think the internet has changed all of that. The youth of Trinidad is on Facebook, Twitter and Instagram and we are appreciating the wider audience. It's changed things."
She shared that a few years ago, while visiting T&T, an acquaintance asked her, quite rudely, whether or not a brush could pass through her hair. When Yursik visited again this year in January, however, the very same person remarked at how well she looked. She believes T&T is beginning to accept difference.
"Difference is ok. Not everybody has to look the same and dress the same and think the same. I see that more now. When I used to live here as a teenager I felt the need to fit in to what other people were wearing, but I don't feel like that anymore and I don't think a lot of people feel like that anymore. Maybe it's also a growing up thing."
There's still a long way to go before accepting differences becomes the norm, however. Last year Yursik, who also blogs about plus-size fashion posted a photo of herself in a purple swimsuit.
Overwhelmingly, the comments were positive but there was that one person likened her to the children's character Barney. The comment hurt, but did not shake Yursik's confidence. After deciding
not to respond to the comment, Yursik noticed that she didn't need to. "I didn't even have to say anything because my fans set him straight for me."
